A Girl With A Blog

I feel life is one disappointing situation after another and although there is some great stuff thrown in there too, it really comes down to how you deal with the disappointment. Since college I have experienced so much rejection it is unbelievable. Prior to this, the only rejection I dealt with was in my dancing. I'd go on auditions and sometimes not get the position I wanted. I'm fine with this sort of rejection because you can control it, you can work your turn-out and get back to class. There will be another opportunity and you can learn from your mistakes.

The rejection I've had lately is both professional and personal. Professionally I have busted my ass and still haven't gotten that big first job due to the economy. There is no reason why I shouldn't have a job. There is no excuse for companies (three in particular) to promise and pseudo-hire someone and not follow through due to poor financial planning. There is no reason I should still keep at this depressing and soul-sucking job search but I am.

Personally, the guys in my life have been just as problematic. I'm exhausted from chasing after one who isn't interested and fighting with another over the way he treats me as his girlfriend while he pursues others. Not one man in my life, including family, has not turned out to be a major disappointment and my standards are not unreasonable. All I want is someone I have chemistry with. Beyond that I would like them to actively want to spend time with me, return a text a few hours after I send one and have their own interests/passions/creative outlets/friends. Boom. Not a whole lot to ask for dudes, truly it isn't.

So how do I deal with this crap? I'm running out of optimism and creative solutions.