Bummed Out
Have you ever been bummed out about something but not really sure what, why or what to do about it? It's kind of a strange feeling. Today was beautiful so it's not the weather and I went out to eat with some of my favorite girls around, so it's not loneliness or something like that. Maybe it's because I have nothing cool going on.
Last year at this time I was getting ready to go to a broadcasting conference with my friends, I had my summer internship interview coming up, I just came back from a week in Seattle and finishing my favorite capstone class of all time, IMC. I was all about the radio marathon, choreographing pieces for myself and the dance team, interviewing politicians for wtv and living in Knights with some amazing people. My life was so busy and fun and interesting.
Why did I complain that I had to spend time in the JLab? Why did I get frustrated about carrying camera equipment across town or scrambling dvd projects together? Why was I annoyed about going to a conference to pick up an award? Why did I hate going to the caf, when all of the food was awesome and ready when you wanted it? Why did I ever complain about my roommates or my professors?
I'm not as happy, not in love with life like I was one year ago. I wonder if I'll ever feel like that again. I really want to move forward and on to other things that get me to the way I used to be. This can't be all there is to life after school, it just can't be.
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