"Everything's Fine"
It's been a really rough couple of days but I'm starting to feel better. Definitely not great or super awesome happy but certain that I'm doing what I need to do for the moment. It just really sucks to grow up and be responsible.
So I've been trying to stay away from my facebook as much as I can and only check it when I get an email. I've gone back in to my angsty 90s girl rock collection and I've started looking at choreography for my new dancers. I bought a new pair of shoes the other day and I dyed my hair a little darker, not much darker but a little.
All of these things can't replace what I've lost but they'll help me get to where I need to go. This blog has been so therapeutic, spilling my guts to the world (even if I'm the only reader) is refreshing. Everything is out there and anyone could stumble upon it at any given moment.
I'd be lying if I said I didn't miss him. We have this way of being completely in sync but on the wrong page. It'd be like someone telling you they want to meet you for ice cream at 9:00 and you totally want ice cream too so you go and they're not there. Then you find out they wanted ice cream at 9:00 a.m. and you were feeling more of an evening thing. You both wanted ice cream at 9:00 just two different 9:00s.
I'm hoping to clear up the time difference by getting my life more pulled together. Obviously, I'll never have it all figured out but a job, an apt and some more friends to hang out with would be nice. I've always considered myself to be a really independent person and living at home and working a non-paid internship is crazy frustrating. It's all for a good cause and only something good can come from it but man, It's almost been three months!
I could really use my roommates at the moment, I miss those kids so much.
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